Holding my breath
This strategy: holding breath, has been my chosen coping mechanism for lots of things.
Even now, I’m thinking it could be a good idea.
I find myself thinking, “I just did CANCER. Do I really have to do another hard thing? Can I just hold my breath and wait for this to pass?”
It bears mentioning here that another one of my chosen nightmares was the apocalyptic nightmare.
Trauma Brain
Trauma brain is like the on ramp on the highway with the stoplight that lets only one or two cars through before it turns red again.
I can hear the blink blink of the red light, protecting me from information and emotional overload. The traffic of my thoughts has to slow down otherwise I will crash. If I think and feel ALL OF IT all at once, I will explode.