Trinity Wilbourn 3/31/20 Trinity Wilbourn 3/31/20

When surrender is how you fight

Trinity Wilbourn 3/31/20 Trinity Wilbourn 3/31/20

Start with what’s in front of you

My job: to help Phoenix make it through chemo.
My worst days were the days I googled things.

Trinity Wilbourn 3/16/20 Trinity Wilbourn 3/16/20

Holding my breath

This strategy: holding breath, has been my chosen coping mechanism for lots of things.

Even now, I’m thinking it could be a good idea.

I find myself thinking, “I just did CANCER. Do I really have to do another hard thing? Can I just hold my breath and wait for this to pass?”

It bears mentioning here that another one of my chosen nightmares was the apocalyptic nightmare.

Trinity Wilbourn 3/14/20 Trinity Wilbourn 3/14/20

Nothing is no matter what

Nothing is no matter what.
Nothing is no matter what.
Every bit of everything you counted on can fall away.

You are left with a question: what matters?

Trinity Wilbourn 3/13/20 Trinity Wilbourn 3/13/20

Our strength is our softness

The architecture of our lives is cards and toothpicks.

And wrapping toilet paper rolls around it doesn’t make it stronger.

We want so desperately to be safe, to believe we have a home, to be able to close our eyes at night with guarantees the sun will rise and all will be well with the world.